I get very worried when people come up to me and ask me if I applied to college. I tell them that I don’t believe that God wants me to yet, but they just don’t understand.
“Aren’t you a senior?”
“What will you do, then?”
“Don’t you want to go to college?”
“Are you going to start applying now?”
“Are you going to get a job and save up then?”
And my favorite: “Where do you want to go to college?”
I try to explain myself again and leave the conversation shaking my head. They just don’t understand.
I try to live by the principles in Matthew 6:34: Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof. Not that I never think about tomorrow. I still haven’t completely figured out this verse. But I do believe that doing my highschool work is enough for today.
Of course…there are times when I do worry about tomorrow. The other day I was thinking about what I’m going to do next month when I’m done with highschool. I thinking about my future and how there seemed to be nothing to look forward to. In my despair I sobbed to my mom, “My life is about to end!”
She smiled at me, gave me a hug and said, “Oh, no it isn’t! It’s just about to begin!” My mom is always encouraging me in ways like that.
I was thinking about the significance of what my mom said. When I am done with highschool, so much more opportunities will be opened for me that I just cannot see right now. It’s as if I’m in the fog right now and cannot see what will happen to me.
All this while, I’ve been worrying that when I walked through to the other side of the fog, that I would be faced with a shear-faced cliff that I would plummet off. But when I think of God’s promises, I know that this is not true. In Jeremiah, the LORD says, For I know the thoughts that I think toward you…thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
I know that once I get to the other side of the fog, I will encounter a landscape more beautiful than I have ever seen. I know that God has an awesome, wonderful, beautiful, marvelous plan for me! It may be walking through a beautiful field of flowers, or I may in fact encounter a cliff. But I know that God will give me the means to climb it and will not let me fall. I will not be disappointed if God chooses the harder road for me. After all, the best views are seen from the high places.
And, even if I do fall from the cliff, even if the future still looks bleak when I get to the other side of the fog, I know that when all is said and done, and the fog of this world is all cleared, I will be home my Savior.